Something is dragging me backward
to my fifth year
when I began my quarrel with God.
I step into the morning
after the first frost--
The beeches are radiant,
shaking their bones clothed in honey,
shivering in delicious fear.
If only we too turned golden
at the first stroke of cold.
I shall walk by the river in the sun,
studying transparency
and the book of impersonal love.
3.31.2011
3.27.2011
to crave
"For need can blossom into all the compensation it requires. To crave and to have are as like as a thing and its shadow. For when does a berry break upon the tongue as sweetly as when one longs to taste it, and when is the taste refracted into so many hues and savors of ripeness and earth, and when do our senses know any thing so utterly as when we lack it? And here again is a foreshadowing-the world will be made whole. For to wish for a hand on one's hair is all but to feel it. So whatever we may lose, very craving gives it back to us again. Though we dream and hardly know it, longing, like an angel, fosters us, smooths our hair, and brings us wild strawberries."
{Marilynne Robinson, Housekeeping}
{Marilynne Robinson, Housekeeping}
3.26.2011
15 weeks!
Baby's size? our baby is the size of an Apple now! Its hard to believe that just 10 weeks ago, Littlebit was as tiny as a sesame seed!
Weight Gain? no change!
Maternity clothes? yes! i could technically still squeeze into my normal jeans and such, but since i've been pregnant, i've felt very uncomfortable wearing anything that is very tight around my belly. and now my regular jeans really squunch my belly to pieces when i sit down in them! so i'm wearing some of my maternity pants / shorts that aren't too big, though i'm mostly in regular tops right now.
Sleep? I've slept pretty good this past week. I've also been really active though--I worked out every day this week!! its the first time I've done that since before I started getting morning sickness.
Foods I am loving? I discovered over the past week that I can eat Chicken Again!!!!! As long as its chopped up and not in big chunks (still no chicfila, grossness!). I'm actually even Loving it right now..I discovered this when there were some leftover chicken salad sandwiches from an event we hosted this week. the sponsor told me they didn't want them, so i was Going to just take them to the break room for whoever...but then i discovered that chicken salad sandwiches are actually the Only Thing i can eat right now, and they wouldn't want my baby to starve, so it only makes sense for me to keep them all for myself, right? i took all 7 sandwiches home with me. then when those were gone i had KFC. yay chicken!
Foods I am hating? big chunks of anything...meat in general smells bad. oh and Absolutely nothing with any sweetness in the mornings!
Best moment this week? I heard the heartbeat again this Wednesday, at my doctor appointment! It was in the 160s again--I've got one consistent baby! and the doctor said that me and the baby are completely completely healthy, couldn't be better. that is exactly what I was hoping to hear!
Symptoms? I was a little sick on Sunday and Very sick on Monday this week. I had been trying to eat these healthy breakfasts--a piece of fruit and water, or a granola bar and water--but I'm starting to think that I just can't have anything with flavor in the morning. Mashed Potatoes go over well, as do crackers. So I'm just going to play it safe a few more weeks until the nausea (hopefully) completely disappears!
What I'm looking forward to? too many things to say!
Emotions: overall happy and content, but sometimes worry comes in one gigantic overwhelming wave, every once in a while. april's approach makes summer feel so very close, and i'm getting antsy.
Weight Gain? no change!
Maternity clothes? yes! i could technically still squeeze into my normal jeans and such, but since i've been pregnant, i've felt very uncomfortable wearing anything that is very tight around my belly. and now my regular jeans really squunch my belly to pieces when i sit down in them! so i'm wearing some of my maternity pants / shorts that aren't too big, though i'm mostly in regular tops right now.
Sleep? I've slept pretty good this past week. I've also been really active though--I worked out every day this week!! its the first time I've done that since before I started getting morning sickness.
Foods I am loving? I discovered over the past week that I can eat Chicken Again!!!!! As long as its chopped up and not in big chunks (still no chicfila, grossness!). I'm actually even Loving it right now..I discovered this when there were some leftover chicken salad sandwiches from an event we hosted this week. the sponsor told me they didn't want them, so i was Going to just take them to the break room for whoever...but then i discovered that chicken salad sandwiches are actually the Only Thing i can eat right now, and they wouldn't want my baby to starve, so it only makes sense for me to keep them all for myself, right? i took all 7 sandwiches home with me. then when those were gone i had KFC. yay chicken!
Foods I am hating? big chunks of anything...meat in general smells bad. oh and Absolutely nothing with any sweetness in the mornings!
Best moment this week? I heard the heartbeat again this Wednesday, at my doctor appointment! It was in the 160s again--I've got one consistent baby! and the doctor said that me and the baby are completely completely healthy, couldn't be better. that is exactly what I was hoping to hear!
Symptoms? I was a little sick on Sunday and Very sick on Monday this week. I had been trying to eat these healthy breakfasts--a piece of fruit and water, or a granola bar and water--but I'm starting to think that I just can't have anything with flavor in the morning. Mashed Potatoes go over well, as do crackers. So I'm just going to play it safe a few more weeks until the nausea (hopefully) completely disappears!
What I'm looking forward to? too many things to say!
Emotions: overall happy and content, but sometimes worry comes in one gigantic overwhelming wave, every once in a while. april's approach makes summer feel so very close, and i'm getting antsy.
3.24.2011
writing, books, { & stuff }
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i think that i'm going to need some good poetry books for the first few months of motherhoodi can see myself sitting up nursing late in the night, poetry book in one arm baby in the other, and, highly emotional and sleep deprived, scrawling out the best poetry i've ever written, long-hand, by lamplight......
maybe that is a bit romanticized, but either way, i'm hoping to sell some of my old no-longer-desired poetry books on amazon so i can build up a little cache of quality poetry books for the early months.
my wishlist:
Human Chain by Seamus Heaney (because I love Seamus! just as charming on paper as he is in person)
Back by George Ella Lyon (because I was completely enraptured with Catalpa, her one and only other poetry book that isn't for children)
Windfall by Maggie Anderson
Desire Lines by Lola Haskins
The Forces of Plenty by Ellen Bryant Voigt
Messenger by Ellen Bryant Voigt
The Selected Poetry of Rainier Maria Rilke (this one i've read before, but its always good for a re-read)
Vita Nova by Louise Glück (because I don't own enough Glück books)
*2*
NaPoWriMo. should i participate this year?
in november heather and i embarked on a like challenge (and were successful!), but i'm not sure about doing it again so soon. do challenges like that lead to quantity over quality? is it rushing it? will it burn me out? when all was said and done, i think about half of what i wrote last november was usable, after lots of editing. which, still, is much more than i would've typically written in a month, at my poem-a-week pace.
on the other hand, i don't think a baby will leave much time for writing that much again this november. plus, challenges are fun. and who says i actually have to complete the challenge?
by the way, B refuses to believe that anyone actually calls it that. NaPoWriMo, seriously, its a term, i tell him. and he laughs.
*3*
i've done a lot of work on my manuscript this past month. after using wordcounter, i determined that i needed to cut back on some of the frequently used words in my collection--which was a great exercise, it helped get rid of repetitions in ideas, metaphors, etc. sometimes it was hard--i had to cut one or two otherwise good poems because they just weren't Different enough--and, as a professor told me, sometimes it meant making an individual poem Less in order to make the whole More. i'm pretty happy with what i have right now, and working up a little list of places to send my manuscript in the coming months. its a bit of a measly number, due to not much cash to put towards contests, but i figure a little bit of trying is better than not at all. plus, i'm not really in a rush--i'd really love to have it published before i'm 30, so i've got half a decade of wiggle room.
3.23.2011
the job-hunt continues.
B has already gotten a lot of calls back & has a few churches seriously looking at him right now, but we've decided to keep sending out resumes until one of those churches hires him. i'm in charge of sending out resumes--i'm his "secretary," as my mother in law likes to say--and today i sent a resume to the closest place to family so far (TN) and one the furthest (AK).
i have to admit, i struggled with sending the resume to the alaska church...do they even have sunshine there? its above CANADA!...but then i felt convicted--how can i pray for the lord to lead us wherever he wants us to go, then say "oh, but not alaska, not anywhere that makes us too uncomfortable."
so, resume sent! who knows, i could really love alaska!
we're praying that God opens up some doors so that we can move before i get too hugely-big this summer--but, more than that, we're praying that God will lead us to the Right church for us to serve at, in his time, whenever and wherever that might be!
i have to admit, i struggled with sending the resume to the alaska church...do they even have sunshine there? its above CANADA!...but then i felt convicted--how can i pray for the lord to lead us wherever he wants us to go, then say "oh, but not alaska, not anywhere that makes us too uncomfortable."
so, resume sent! who knows, i could really love alaska!
we're praying that God opens up some doors so that we can move before i get too hugely-big this summer--but, more than that, we're praying that God will lead us to the Right church for us to serve at, in his time, whenever and wherever that might be!
3.20.2011
25th birthday
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| 14 weeks, right before going on my birthday date with B~! actually my baby belly doesn't show very much in that dress, but i wanted a pregnant looking picture so i made sure to poke it out! |
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| melting pot date! |
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| chocolate creme brulee! |
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| Friday night I visited Heather! we had so much fun--ate at the best Thai place ever, then got some ice cream and watched a movie! good pregnant woman fun =) AND she decorated the guest room for my birthday!! so sweet! |
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| me and heather! |
3.18.2011
14 weeks!
Baby's size? the size of lemon! LittleBit can make faces and suck his/her thumb now! I wish I could have ultrasounds everyday so I could watch!
Weight Gain? No change, still 5lbs under my prepregnancy weight. My father in law (an OB/GYN for the past 30 years), told me that I should shoot for only gaining 10-15lbs above my prepregnancy weight by the time I'm entering my third trimester. I'm planning on staying really active and doing my best to stay in that range!
Sleep? Still waking up a lot in the night. And loving naps!
Foods I am loving? ethnic food. I had a wonderful Greek gyro the other day, and I'm craving some Thai and Ethiopian.
Foods I am hating? I typically LOVE fruit but I've had some trouble handling how sweet it is lately.
Best moment this week? Date-day with B! I had yesterday off (my work gives employees a paid day off for the month of their birthday), so we went out and enjoyed the pretty weather, then had a nice dinner at the melting pot, our very favorite!
Symptoms? I haven't thrown up since TUESDAY!!! Still tired a bit, but other than that I'm feeling pretty good! Yay for second trimester!!
What I miss? feeling comfortable in my skinny jeans! ever since I even first got pregnant I just haven't felt comfortable wearing anything that is tight against my belly, I want my belly to be FREE! I hated the belly-band (perhaps for the same reason, all stretchy-tight against the belly), so I've been wearing some graciously donated size-too-big hand-me-downs from a friend. I can't wait until its warm enough to wear dresses and skirts everyday!
What I will miss? Not too much about the first trimester
What I'm looking forward to? hearing the heartbeat again next week!
Emotions: Excited about this weekend! Its my birthday on Saturday, and I'm going to get to see my friend Heather tonight then see my parents on Saturday! I'm wanting to visit friends and family as much as I can these next 6 months or so, before B and I move away to who knows where!
Weight Gain? No change, still 5lbs under my prepregnancy weight. My father in law (an OB/GYN for the past 30 years), told me that I should shoot for only gaining 10-15lbs above my prepregnancy weight by the time I'm entering my third trimester. I'm planning on staying really active and doing my best to stay in that range!
Sleep? Still waking up a lot in the night. And loving naps!
Foods I am loving? ethnic food. I had a wonderful Greek gyro the other day, and I'm craving some Thai and Ethiopian.
Foods I am hating? I typically LOVE fruit but I've had some trouble handling how sweet it is lately.
Best moment this week? Date-day with B! I had yesterday off (my work gives employees a paid day off for the month of their birthday), so we went out and enjoyed the pretty weather, then had a nice dinner at the melting pot, our very favorite!
Symptoms? I haven't thrown up since TUESDAY!!! Still tired a bit, but other than that I'm feeling pretty good! Yay for second trimester!!
What I miss? feeling comfortable in my skinny jeans! ever since I even first got pregnant I just haven't felt comfortable wearing anything that is tight against my belly, I want my belly to be FREE! I hated the belly-band (perhaps for the same reason, all stretchy-tight against the belly), so I've been wearing some graciously donated size-too-big hand-me-downs from a friend. I can't wait until its warm enough to wear dresses and skirts everyday!
What I will miss? Not too much about the first trimester
What I'm looking forward to? hearing the heartbeat again next week!
Emotions: Excited about this weekend! Its my birthday on Saturday, and I'm going to get to see my friend Heather tonight then see my parents on Saturday! I'm wanting to visit friends and family as much as I can these next 6 months or so, before B and I move away to who knows where!
3.17.2011
At Dusk by Natasha Trethewey
At first I think she is calling a child,
my neighbor, leaning through her doorway
at dusk, street lamps just starting to hum
the backdrop of evening. Then I hear
the high-pitched wheedling we send out
to animals who know only sound, not
how they sometimes fall short.
In another yard, beyond my neighbor's
sight, the cat lifts her ears, turns first
toward the voice, then back
to the constellation of fireflies flickering
near her head. It's as if she can't decide
whether to leap over the low hedge,
the neat row of flowers, and bound
onto the porch, into the steady circle
of light, or stay where she is: luminous
possibility--all that would keep her
away from home--flitting before her.
I listen as my neighbor's voice trails off.
She's given up calling for now, left me
to imagine her inside the house waiting,
perhaps in a chair in front of the TV,
or walking around, doing small tasks;
left me to wonder that I too might lift
my voice, sure of someone out there,
send it over the lines stitching here
to there, certain the sounds I make
are enough to call someone home.
my neighbor, leaning through her doorway
at dusk, street lamps just starting to hum
the backdrop of evening. Then I hear
the high-pitched wheedling we send out
to animals who know only sound, not
how they sometimes fall short.
In another yard, beyond my neighbor's
sight, the cat lifts her ears, turns first
toward the voice, then back
to the constellation of fireflies flickering
near her head. It's as if she can't decide
whether to leap over the low hedge,
the neat row of flowers, and bound
onto the porch, into the steady circle
of light, or stay where she is: luminous
possibility--all that would keep her
away from home--flitting before her.
I listen as my neighbor's voice trails off.
She's given up calling for now, left me
to imagine her inside the house waiting,
perhaps in a chair in front of the TV,
or walking around, doing small tasks;
left me to wonder that I too might lift
my voice, sure of someone out there,
send it over the lines stitching here
to there, certain the sounds I make
are enough to call someone home.
3.15.2011
slip
walking in the slick, rain-wet hallway today i slipped and fell. caught myself on one knee but was so overwhelmed by the thought of Had-I-Fallen-and-Hurt-the-Baby, i had a good little cry anyway.
B assures me that my body is meant to protect the baby through little falls like that. but in general i don't trust it, the enormously awkward and accident-prone thing that i am.
B assures me that my body is meant to protect the baby through little falls like that. but in general i don't trust it, the enormously awkward and accident-prone thing that i am.
3.13.2011
13 weeks!
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| B's dad is an OB/GYN, so while we were visiting this week, he let us come up to his office and get a free ultrasound. in this 4d picture, you can see the little ear! |
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| measuring perfectly for 13 weeks! |
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| baby foot! |
13 weeks, the last of my first trimester! last week I only had a few bouts of morning sickness, but this morning i had one of the worst ones yet--maybe being tired/worn out has something to do with it too? not sure, but all i know is i was curled up on the bathroom floor for an hour or so this morning. As for other things, no changes with cravings, no weight gain, no new symptoms. I'm starting to feel better, in between the little bouts. I think that by next week my morning sickness should be over! but maybe i am just optimistic? and i'll take a belly-pic sometime soon--I don't see much change yet though, so I think I'm going to take pictures more when the changes are more obvious. I did end up going to a kids/maternity consignment sale with my sister and mother in law while we were in town, and got a ton of summer maternity clothes for cheap, so I think I'll be ready for my big ole belly, whenever i get out of this in-between size.
emotionally...I'm feeling pretty good. drained and tired, from the past week and all thats going on, but so happy about this baby. i love being pregnant, even the sickness isn't really so bad compared to the feeling of carrying a new life!
3.12.2011
bittersweet
We spent most of this week in b's hometown, mourning the death of his grandad. It was a bittersweet week-- his grandad had been in bad health for so long. He was a strong Christian, and it was amazing to see at the funeral how many people he had helped and lives he had changed.
We're sad our LittleBit won't meet him, but so glad that he left such a Godly legacy. I hope one day that my grandfathers will become Christians and that we'll be able to celebrate their going home to the Lord when they pass. The first time I met Bj, when b and I were engaged, he took me out to Wendy's for "a coke" ( literally, just a coke lol ) and to tell me "what I'm getting myself into" marrying into the family; well he dodn't need to warn me, couldn't ask for a better in- law family-- I'm so thankful that our baby will have strong Christian grandparents, and aunts and uncles. Though the reason for us getting together this week was sad, I loved getting to spend time with this side of my family. I feel so blessed to not only have a good, Christian, in-law family, but a family I actually enjoy being around! I wish we could make it down there more often.
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I've been praying often and hard this week...there's the thing I'd mentioned on here before (and much more we found out this week), of course the loss in B's family, and then some work related things with my family and their possibly relocating soon.
Ah, more murkiness.
I'm hoping to write more on all of these things soon. Things are very up-in-the-air right now. I know God has a plan in all of this though, and it will all work out to his glory.
I am believing all things, hoping all things.
We're sad our LittleBit won't meet him, but so glad that he left such a Godly legacy. I hope one day that my grandfathers will become Christians and that we'll be able to celebrate their going home to the Lord when they pass. The first time I met Bj, when b and I were engaged, he took me out to Wendy's for "a coke" ( literally, just a coke lol ) and to tell me "what I'm getting myself into" marrying into the family; well he dodn't need to warn me, couldn't ask for a better in- law family-- I'm so thankful that our baby will have strong Christian grandparents, and aunts and uncles. Though the reason for us getting together this week was sad, I loved getting to spend time with this side of my family. I feel so blessed to not only have a good, Christian, in-law family, but a family I actually enjoy being around! I wish we could make it down there more often.
***
I've been praying often and hard this week...there's the thing I'd mentioned on here before (and much more we found out this week), of course the loss in B's family, and then some work related things with my family and their possibly relocating soon.
Ah, more murkiness.
I'm hoping to write more on all of these things soon. Things are very up-in-the-air right now. I know God has a plan in all of this though, and it will all work out to his glory.
I am believing all things, hoping all things.
3.07.2011
words
according to wordcounter, the five most common words in my manuscript (as it stands) are:
Through
Tree
Summer
Day
One
I wasn't terribly surprised. I write an awful lot about trees, and summer, and movement. Debating if I should edit some of these down to less frequency? Is 26 times too many times to say "through" in 74 pages? Or is that one of those hard-to-avoid, nondescript words, like "and" or "the" ?
The rest of the list, if you are curious:
come
hand
back
small
over
home
place
house
body
water
look
grass
down
white
bird
keep
window
time
room
limb
Through
Tree
Summer
Day
One
I wasn't terribly surprised. I write an awful lot about trees, and summer, and movement. Debating if I should edit some of these down to less frequency? Is 26 times too many times to say "through" in 74 pages? Or is that one of those hard-to-avoid, nondescript words, like "and" or "the" ?
The rest of the list, if you are curious:
come
hand
back
small
over
home
place
house
body
water
look
grass
down
white
bird
keep
window
time
room
limb
3.06.2011
intuition and prayer
Lately I've been wondering if "women's intuition" is real, or even a biblical thing to believe in...its something I have always sort of thought that I had; not that I can predict the future or anything (I wish!) but I usually have a feeling something will happen or is happening before I find out about it. Maybe everyone feels like that from time to time?
Most recently I had a feeling that it was time for B and I to leave our current church, which started sometime in November, though we didn't know we were pregnant (and therefore need to leave so that B can get the practical experience of leading worship on his own) until January. And, when B did put out his resume for church jobs, he immediately was hired by the absolute perfect first (part-time) church for him. Its been great to see how its built his confidence and already begun to prepare him for full-time ministry. I know that this is God's working in our lives, but I wonder about the intuition part. Maybe it was something that was just obviously going to happen soon? Maybe God put it on my heart?
And God putting something on my heart...that phrase has me wondering too. Its what I've been thinking about this week...I have been praying for something, but these past few days I have suddenly had the feeling that I need to be REALLY praying for it--like down on my knees everyday praying for it, intense prayer, real and earnest prayer--and I'm wondering, since this is a good thing that I'm praying for, if this is just my intuition, or selfish desires, or if God is laying it on my heart to pray for this thing. And would it be Wrong to pray for it so earnestly if its just something that I want?
Just some Sunday morning thoughts. Puzzled by the mystery of it all.
Most recently I had a feeling that it was time for B and I to leave our current church, which started sometime in November, though we didn't know we were pregnant (and therefore need to leave so that B can get the practical experience of leading worship on his own) until January. And, when B did put out his resume for church jobs, he immediately was hired by the absolute perfect first (part-time) church for him. Its been great to see how its built his confidence and already begun to prepare him for full-time ministry. I know that this is God's working in our lives, but I wonder about the intuition part. Maybe it was something that was just obviously going to happen soon? Maybe God put it on my heart?
And God putting something on my heart...that phrase has me wondering too. Its what I've been thinking about this week...I have been praying for something, but these past few days I have suddenly had the feeling that I need to be REALLY praying for it--like down on my knees everyday praying for it, intense prayer, real and earnest prayer--and I'm wondering, since this is a good thing that I'm praying for, if this is just my intuition, or selfish desires, or if God is laying it on my heart to pray for this thing. And would it be Wrong to pray for it so earnestly if its just something that I want?
Just some Sunday morning thoughts. Puzzled by the mystery of it all.
3.05.2011
12 weeks!
Baby's size? the size of a LIME! I can't believe how fast our LittleBit is growing!
Weight Gain? No change this week, still 5lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight.
Sleep? Still waking up to go to the bathroom constantly. and having lots of strange dreams!
Foods I am loving? meat and potatoes. and Tomatoes. yum!
Foods I am hating? chicken and noodles. and sometimes rice.
Best moment this week? B and I had a fun date Thursday night
Symptoms? Still sick from time to time. Its mainly confined to mornings now though, thank goodness. I'm tired more some days than others, but overall my energy has gradually been coming back. I've been able to get a lot more done around the house and I've started working out regularly again. Just being able to do most of what I used to do makes me feel better, physically and emotionally.
What I miss? Honestly, right now, nothing. I love being pregnant, even the not-so-fun trimester.
What I will miss? Looking somewhat like my regular self--but I'm excited about my baby-belly too!
What I'm looking forward to? Second Trimester! I hear its supposed to be the best trimester--I'll start showing more and have more energy, which I'm excited about. Plus, there is much lower risk of losing the baby (Lord forbid) at that point.
Emotions: Content, and excited about what the future holds.
Weight Gain? No change this week, still 5lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight.
Sleep? Still waking up to go to the bathroom constantly. and having lots of strange dreams!
Foods I am loving? meat and potatoes. and Tomatoes. yum!
Foods I am hating? chicken and noodles. and sometimes rice.
Best moment this week? B and I had a fun date Thursday night
Symptoms? Still sick from time to time. Its mainly confined to mornings now though, thank goodness. I'm tired more some days than others, but overall my energy has gradually been coming back. I've been able to get a lot more done around the house and I've started working out regularly again. Just being able to do most of what I used to do makes me feel better, physically and emotionally.
What I miss? Honestly, right now, nothing. I love being pregnant, even the not-so-fun trimester.
What I will miss? Looking somewhat like my regular self--but I'm excited about my baby-belly too!
What I'm looking forward to? Second Trimester! I hear its supposed to be the best trimester--I'll start showing more and have more energy, which I'm excited about. Plus, there is much lower risk of losing the baby (Lord forbid) at that point.
Emotions: Content, and excited about what the future holds.
3.04.2011
This week has been purely wonderful.
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Beginning to feel better, I was able to go to aerobics class and go on walks, things that always make me feel more centered and relaxed. I love my walk to the library--it takes about 25-30 minutes, not too long, and I walk through the most lovely neighborhood, all old Victorians, scrolled and beautiful.
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B and I went on an impromptu date last night, downtown (where we never go), for dinner since I was craving potato skins (and a side of mashed potatoes). It was fun to just pick up and go, and to get fancied up, and to people-watch, and to talk about everything.
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Tonight I plan to cook like crazy. On the menu:
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After a very slow month of writing, I wrote two poems this week! It feels so good to be creating again; I love the moment of being IN a poem, of the physical writing of it, of being in the action of doing exactly what God made me to do. Its bliss, pure happiness, I don't know if I can properly describe it.
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And it is March! I have fabulous plans for my birthday brewing. And the spring is rolling in gradually and tumultuously, and I can begin to shake the winter dust off of my spring dresses. And the forsythia turns the brightest and happiest yellow.
Beginning to feel better, I was able to go to aerobics class and go on walks, things that always make me feel more centered and relaxed. I love my walk to the library--it takes about 25-30 minutes, not too long, and I walk through the most lovely neighborhood, all old Victorians, scrolled and beautiful.
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B and I went on an impromptu date last night, downtown (where we never go), for dinner since I was craving potato skins (and a side of mashed potatoes). It was fun to just pick up and go, and to get fancied up, and to people-watch, and to talk about everything.
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Tonight I plan to cook like crazy. On the menu:
- my favorite Shrimp and Tomato Chowder
- whole wheat and mozzarella grilled cheese sandwiches
- spinach salad with raspberry vinigrette dressing
- a made-from-scratch blueberry cheesecake (for B, he's been requesting it for a while now!)
- and a cherry pie (for me, I've been craving it all week!)
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After a very slow month of writing, I wrote two poems this week! It feels so good to be creating again; I love the moment of being IN a poem, of the physical writing of it, of being in the action of doing exactly what God made me to do. Its bliss, pure happiness, I don't know if I can properly describe it.
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And it is March! I have fabulous plans for my birthday brewing. And the spring is rolling in gradually and tumultuously, and I can begin to shake the winter dust off of my spring dresses. And the forsythia turns the brightest and happiest yellow.
3.01.2011
:: currently ::
...on this lion-ish first day of march, I am...
:reading:
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:craving:
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| :homemade cherry pie: |
:admiring:
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| :branch ring: |
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| :simple beauty: |
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| :cool and calm: |
:dreaming of:
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| :spring: |
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| :moving: |
&, yes, of this..
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| :motherhood: (images via pinterest) |
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